You Must Love Me

I wrote the bulk of this a few years ago. Recently, I’ve had cause to revisit some of these thoughts and so I’ve made a few changes and decided to share it with you again…

Eva Peron is one of those larger than life personalities that tumble through history. A girl of illegitimate birth and questionable reputation, she rose from poverty to become the First Lady of Argentina and a cultural icon. Andrew Lloyd Webber’s musical Evita is one of my favorites.

Back in 1996, a motion picture of the musical was released starring Madonna. In that version, a new song was added to the score entitled, “You Must Love Me.” From a musical standpoint, the song is very simple. The vocals are accompanied primarily by piano and a cello. It is a beautiful addition to the musical as it adds an element to Eva Peron’s character not seen in the original stage production. Eva is portrayed as strong willed and ambitious, seeking greatness with little regard for anything or anyone else. Even her marriage to Juan Peron was portrayed as being centered on power and not love. The song was added at a place in the story where we find Eva battling cancer – a fight she would lose at the age of 33. She is unaccustomed to weakness, and is now struggling with the emotions of where her life has gone. You can click on the link to hear the song.  These are her words:

You Must Love Me

 

Where do we go from here? This isn’t where we intended to be            
We had it all, you believed in me, I believed in you

Certainties disappear, what do we do for our dream to survive?
How do we keep all our passions alive, as we used to do?

Deep in my heart I’m concealing things that I’m longing to say
Scared to confess what I’m feeling, frightened you’ll slip away

You must love me. 

Why are you at my side? How can I be of any use to you now?
Give me a chance and I’ll let you see how nothing has changed

Deep in my heart I’m concealing things that I’m longing to say
Scared to confess what I’m feeling, frightened you’ll slip away

You must love me

I’ve often wondered how to interpret Eva’s words. When I originally wrote this, I offered two possibilities. I thought she could be saying it with surprise, finally realizing that she really had been loved all along without knowing it. It also thought it could be a result of Eva’s fear. Being someone who had all the answers and unapologetic she now finds herself mired in weakness, pleading to those around her to give her the aid and comfort she needs as she faces her final days. It’s actually both.

Eva is dying and she is afraid. She no longer has the strength of her lofty ambitions to rely upon. Her mission in life was always to rise: in popularity, status, wealth, and power. But her rise has now come to an end; her descent has begun. Life as she has always known it has come to a halt. And now, in the quiet she is finally hearing the words of voices long ignored. They are revealing to her the greatest love of her life – a strong, quiet, consistent love that surrounded her. It followed her as she ran at breakneck speed. It lifted her as she climbed to new heights. A total, complete, and undemanding love – the kind that enhances strengths and overlooks flaws and touches the soul in ways we’ve never captured with words. In that moment, Eva’s eyes are opened to realize what would ultimately be her greatest fear:  her thirst for something greater has caused her to miss the greatest gift she’d ever been given.

Why does love do this to us? Out of all of the feelings and emotions we have, why is love so strong and so complex? It is because God is love. Can anyone clearly understand and explain the nature of God? Is it possible for creation to understand its creator? I dare say that we have a greater working knowledge of how to make a sunset than to explain the emotions stirred by seeing one with the love of your life. And because we fail to understand or fear to feel it, we, like Eva, miss it. We hide from what God has given us – only to realize what we had after it’s gone and when it’s too late.

How often have we buried our thoughts and feelings because we felt it best not to speak them? How often have we acted out of a sense of duty or responsibility, only to deprive ourselves of the very things that we needed all along? Or maybe we struggle with opening ourselves to the full force of what love brings? It’s funny, but I can talk for hours with insight and wit on numerous topics, but struggle to string two words together when trying to share love. Saying the wrong thing, making a hard choice, or one errant slip of the tongue and love can be lost. So in fear of saying the wrong thing, or saying it poorly, we say nothing and achieve the same result.

My suspicion is that I am not alone in this struggle. Joshua 1:9 tells us to “be strong and courageous. Do not be discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Think about it. God is love and He is always with us, therefore we are never unloved. Because of our human nature it is easier said than done. So how do we find love? It’s in the One who is love. Look to the Lord. Seek Him in all things and you will know today, tomorrow, and for the rest of your life a promise for us to which God is bound…

You must love me.

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About day1of1

Author, Speaker, Educator, Husband, Father of two and follower of the One.
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2 Responses to You Must Love Me

  1. moonswings says:

    Beautiful. 🙂

  2. day1of1 says:

    Thanks Katherine. And thank you again for this morning…

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